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[29 Apr 2004|02:54pm] |
school is almost over and I feel like I have nothing to show for it. This entire semester, honestly, has felt worthless to me. My grades are going to be shitty as hell, it seems. maybe I should check LORA and try to find out.
I have a huge goddamn paper due monday, and no topic, nowhere to start MOTHERFUCKER. work tonight shit. funny how I never post and now, when I finally do, all I do is Bitch.
Last night I stayed up too late once again. sorry Jason, but Brian and I found great humor in watching you put together your computer. "Commence the jigglin'"
I'm distant from every day. I completely forgot that I was at compusa yesterday with Jason, and riding with Lindsey in her new car. feels like a week ago.
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[29 Mar 2004|12:39pm] |
sick as a fuckin dog. I feel like im going to pass out at school right now. I didn't make it to a single class today and I have a shitload of homework to do.
roger clyne is thurs.
I got a 99 on my theory test.
I need to save more money
fuck.
cody
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[19 Mar 2004|08:58am] |
my theory teacher just said "m'kay" in class, and it was pretty damn funny.
I have so much shit to do this weekend, it's unreal.
-buy a new sub for my room today
-phantom planet tonight (clint, holla back)
-work sat. and sun. morning
-broken social scene sunday
Leslie and Lindsey, I had fun last night. just wanted to let you know.
alright
Cody
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[17 Mar 2004|02:06pm] |
N >E>R>D TONIGHT!!
reprazent
dance, BITCH
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| representin at Crayola with my girl Houser |
[15 Mar 2004|12:35am] |
studying tonight at Loyola tonight with the Houser girl. just had work a couple hours ago. looking forward to this week. a few good shows in mind. see all you bitches there.
I wonder, seriously, what the fuck my grades are. I'm kind of scared, honestly. everyone is, of the unknown.
and I've been ballin lately. no less than 60 bones in the wallet for 2 weeks now. it feels good
lata
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| for everybody |
[12 Mar 2004|02:53pm] |
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Lolita is fucking awesome. Jason, we will watch the film once I am done. I promise.
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[12 Mar 2004|12:46pm] |
40% off weekend at PAc Sun for me, holla!
I think I'll read some of Lolita in the school library today before the next Eva bomb drops at Kevin's today.
- never hang around someone who is tripping and drinking at the same time, espescially if you're practically alone with them and you don't know them very well. searching for a 311 ticket yesterday was fucking weird, and I'm pretty much glad I didn't get in because I'm about $40 richer than I would have been.
-work at 7 in the AM tom. FTS!!
-today is getting to me simply because it's parents weekend, and I keep thinking of how Mary said she wanted me to hang out with her and her family when they came down, and how I really did look forward to it. I know now that it just won't happen.
-come to think of it, last night was weird, too. I don't know what was wrong with my state of mind yesterday. at least I had popeye's
-also, a girl I met at the Thursday show e-mailed me somehow. it's cool, I even replied. but I'm not sure if she even got it because I kind of fucked up the address on it. I may not even see her again, but I think it's always healthy to be able to connect with someone new.
peace
cody
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[10 Mar 2004|09:12am] |
I'm writing in the "events" box, but there really are no events. same daily crap. I have work tonight. test this day, etc. people become faces in the crowd. memories of faded love are here at school, and I begin to realize how each time it matters to me less that they are gone. I wonder how good that is for me, or for anyone. dulled emotion makes life easier, it seems.
the people who criticize melodrama are likely the ones with dulled emotion themselves. "learning" is a matter of dumbing down desire. if you get down to it, "it doesn't matter" can be used to excuse really anything.
oh, and being drunk late at night by yourself makes you very reflective.
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[03 Mar 2004|09:30am] |
nothing like a good music theory test to warm your blood. I feel like the day is over.
the work meeting last night was exceptionally gay. and i'm not sure if i will be off of work for NERD because my boss is even gayer. how the fuck am i supposed to make plans if i get my schedule the week of? that's ridiculous. too much shit to take care of.
and I cannot got see The Roots. fuck.
"hatas, dont act like you know me"
Cody
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[16 Feb 2004|03:25pm] |
I guess I really dont understand or foresee anything thats going on in my life right now. I want to chill more often, take an outside perspective on things. make more money. save. stop smoking. work out. you know.
why am I so afraid of getting bored? I'm always so busy, being alone becomes troublesome. if I'm the only one at home, great. if not, we need to go somewhere, do something. fuck.
March 1st is much needed. for me, for all of us (those attending) get out of this fucking town for awhile. christ.
Cody
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[16 Feb 2004|12:25pm] |
I'd like to give a shout out to all the fly asian waitresses doin' they thang. One at the Tea Garden surely has it goin on. If Mary wouldn't have been there, I woulda got the digits. (just playin).
Sat. was cool, but my boyz left me hangin with no beer. the only response I received for such action was "not a talker. I'm a smoker"
anyway Brian and I will be traveling to Virgin soon so I can spend more money that I really dont need to. (awesome)
peace
Cody
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[13 Feb 2004|09:43am] |
for god's fucking sake, if you having something on your mind, and it needs to be said, do so. the repercussions of silence are unfuckingbearable to me.
so many people could be happier (together, though not limited to that) if they would just tell each other shit.
and anyway, whoever's reading doesn't need to comment upon this, I just wanted to write it down.
This weekend should be cool. tonight Mary and I will separate for a while, do our own things.
and houser and I work together tommorrow. bad-ass
woo woo
cody
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[11 Feb 2004|09:21am] |
ever have a dissapointing night, but there's really no reason for it? I need to stop thinking so much. I don't know what I expect from life.
"it's the sweet and the sour. and I know sour, which makes me able to appreciate the sweet."
-cody
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[03 Feb 2004|07:41pm] |
at school, ready to do a paper. I have a good six hours on hand, but it's still not exciting (obviously).
I feel guilty in a way because so many friends of mine seem to still have these relationship problems, and I'm in a totally different place. I can't help but think that one day I 'll be there again too, but I've been takin' it easy.
"it's a game we play" figuring out how to do it right. what grounds you can and cannot tread on. people can become completely different once you crack into their inner emotions and feelings. then again, that's why people fear being exposed. vulnerability, obviously, but aren't you the least bit afraid that the other could bug out once they KNOW you? yeah, so am I. but worrying about the future usually creates more problems. I'm not worried about these things right now, but sometimes I feel as if I give myself reason to be.
I don't think I'm alone.
anyway everything's cool except for homework and getting up early and lack of funds. but these things don't really matter on the larger scale.
haven't sensed any tension yet. it's scary.
-keep in touch,
Cody
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[30 Jan 2004|01:33pm] |
I walk in the library today. my spot upstairs. sometimes there's too many people there. I won't have my little introspective half hour while people are visible to me. so I keep moving. I read rolling stone because it catches my eye on the table. My headphones get jammed and unplugged so I take it out of my bag and place the player on the table. I learn that there is a rock, paper, scissors tournament in canada, mike patton is a friggin nutcase, Michael stipe sang "Hands Down" live with ya boy, and that Toby Keith still hasn't proven to me that he is not an idiot.
After reading I feel in my onw place. always. this is where I find my greatest definition of self. I read "A&P" by John Updike today and afterwards I didn't feel like moving for the rest of the day. I can walk all over campus with deftones on in total and complete confidence. most practical things lose meaning and signicance by this point. I begin to think about how much I really don't know, how much more music I must hear and reading I must do, just to be exposed, learn, get lost, and do it all over again.
I know I need to do homework today but I can't iamgine doing so. I'm an irresponsible bastard. Clint will have his party tonight and It will probably feel more like home than 2113 DAnny Pk ever has. I'm grateful
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[23 Jan 2004|10:01am] |
things are going pretty well. havent been out as much, and I really dont mind. the sleep I had last night was wonderful.
ron and I had a great philosophically themed discussion night that stemmed somehow from the fact that Jason installed a new stere-ere-o in his sexual offender van. Ron has much to say and much to offer. I am glad he can be so open-minded and communicate so well. (you my boy Ronbo)
feels like I havent seen Leslie and Lindsey in fo-eva. should call them.
Clint could take it a little easier on himself. I have finally done so and things are much more relaxed in my book. girls dont need to cause trouble if you dont allow them to. (perhaps not every case is as simple as that, but it works for me).
and I need to burn some cds.
yea
"eat ya fuckin bagel"
-Cody
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| im a fucking idiot |
[13 Jan 2004|07:54pm] |
i should be in my music pub/copyright class right now, but after our break I went to the b-room. following, I completely forgot where my class was, and I had no one to follow. I searched for the room # for about 20 minutes. now I'm in the library, waiting for brian to get out and give me my books. goddamn
so Clint is watching eva and I'm not sure how he will take it. it seems promising though. we'll find out soon enough. vol III tonight!
and I do believe that Glassjaw is the best thing that has happenned to rock music in quite some time. that's just opinion, but espescially lyrically, no one can touch Daryl.
I think i'll go to the buddha belly tonight. yeah.
haven't talked to Beth since school has started. I do miss her. she seemed kind of fly by night anyway. wouldn't be very surprised if I don't talk to her for a while.
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[12 Jan 2004|03:42pm] |
my schedule was changed without me knowing. at least I have Brian and ron in my music tech class. that's cool.
don't wanna stay here too long, talk about shit later. have been hanging out with mary and this girl is the shit. fucking right. and she's cute as hell. maybe you would approve Lindsey (but I doubt it)
peace
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| all night long |
[11 Dec 2003|05:43am] |
Im at Loyola and completely tweaked. I have an exam at 11:30 and work at 8. had to get this shit done, though. paper and everything. I'm toasted after today. coastin home to Eva rollin on a 61 plasma and Mariokart. then good ol' St. Louie. hopefully.
badass jacket at the funky munky. must buy. mom says she'll fork up the cash. can't complain.
Beth is a good study partner. and I do mean study. easy to work with, and she's very focused.
I think I'll potato style it on my couch a little bit, take a shower. then work. then exam time. goddamn, I'm a busy man.
and X-mas is on its way. glad I dont have a main squeeze right now.
word.
Cody
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[10 Dec 2003|04:12pm] |
just took math. I think Beth and I will study shortly.
need to go look for a jacket somewhere, since St Louis is possibly very close around the corner.
just writing cause I dont update for shit lately.
need to write a whole fucking paper tonight, and read chapters. holy shit.
oh well...
and christmas presents are a must. no more buying cd's motherfucker!!
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